February 2012
1 post
Fuck I’ve eaten too much today. I finally had a decent weight loss, and only 8 hours later I’m already fucking myself over. Why the hell do I do this to myself?
May 2010
3 posts
“Every day you wait is one day you’ll never get back.”
– One Tree Hill (via kari-shma)
March 2010
73 posts
610 calories so far. Not great, two slices of cheese.
Breakfast - 110 cal rockmelon
Early lunch - 30 veg, 100 sour cream, 160 bread roll, 160 cheese.
560
Ok...
So now I think I’ve earned a break.
418 DDR, toilet break, cool down, try and alleviate headache for 10 minutes.
Then.
Another 400 DDR.
So, I’m happy. Tired, and with an insanely painful headache, but happy.
(Though I can’t help thinking that if I hadn’t eaten so much unneeded crap today, I’d be in the negatives…)
Food today
Breakfast - oats, half a glass of juice (200/40)
Lunch - Two mini bread rolls, two slices of cheese, one egg (120/160/50)
Snack - (between breakfast and lunch, in a few goes) Icecream (skinny cow, 100 cal)
Subtotal -670
Very hungry today. Not sure what else I’m going to eat though. Might have some vegies in a couple of hours.
EDIT:
Mini binge. Not impressed with myself....
ddr
310 ddr. Now it’s 4pm, need a shower.
900 calories today.
Fuck.
Burned approx 100 walking, maybe a little more. I want to do at least another 400 on DDR, but I don’t know if I can make it.
Food today ammendum
Had that omelette. 2 eggs, tin of champignons, one slice of cheese. 220 calories.
I now feel uncomfortably full. To the point of grossness. Air con’s going on, I’m going to stretch for a while then at least attempt DDR. I want at least 220 calories, if I can hit it.
thelovelybones:
Fact: I can’t stand eating in public. It makes me so nervous and uncomfortable. I even go sometimes as far to cover my face with my hand while chewing if I have to do so.
I despise eating in front of people. I almost never eat outside my own house. I also despise seeing or hearing other people eat. It’s just a general hate for that whole sphere of life.
Food today
Breakfast - Oats, glass of orange juice. 300 cal
Lunch - Small icecream (100 cal cup), two mini bread rolls (150), one egg, one slice of cheese (130). Attempted some soup, but it’s gone bad, so I haven’t had much, and have a very sharp stomach pain.
680
Walked 2 km. VERY tired today. It’s 1pm, and I’m still tired as hell. Really hungry, but not sure if I want to...
203 cal ddr. This sucks. I’m so damn tired.
Food -
Oats with cinnamon and sweetener 200 cal
Small bread roll, one egg, one slice of cheese. 230
Vegies, sour cream, chicken. 230
660. It’s not much, but after taking a photograph of myself today… It feels like too much.
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Ok, so ‘little’ fuckups matter. I have to be a lot more serious with myself about this diet shit.
69.4. Seriously. Unless that drops by, oh, 1.6kg by morning, this officially sucks. I was doing SO well. Fuck.
DDR
625 calories, done over an hour and a half period. RPing/taking breathers every 100 calories, because I’m FREAKING TIRED TODAY. T_T But not for the lack of sleep - For the massive carb OD at lunch.
Anyway. Shower…
Ok, so, ODing on carbs like this makes me slow to respond, gives me a headache, makes me tired, makes me wear out faster, makes me lethargic, makes me want to give up though I’m only seven minutes in.
Bloated and gross. Did an all-nighter, ate moderately throughout. Weighed myself before getting in bed - 68.9. Probably not going to weigh in in the morning (like an hour away anyway), I’ll wait till tomorrow, after a good day in the coming 20 hours.
59 minutes, 572 calories. There was about… 15 minutes worth of breaks in there, for songs I didn’t like or when I was too crampy. But, now I’m literally -dripping- with sweat, I’m going to call it a day and shower.
Today...
Oats for breakfast, with small glass of juice for tablet.
Shake for lunch, plus small pack of biscuits.
Approx 800.
I’ve had diarrhea all day, but I’m gradually starting to feel a little better.
Currently taking a break from DDR. Right now on 43 min (about 8 min breaktime) 365 cal. I’ve stopped a couple of times, really bad headaches today.
Anyway, back to it.
Change...
Changed my Tumblr theme to one which shows the date for entries. I prefer the look of the other theme, but I don’t have time to write the CSS with {TimeAgo} myself.
In other news, thanks to timestamps, I now know that I’ve lost 2.3kg in 7 days.
O_o
Somehow, after my fuckup last night et all…
I lost a kilo since yesterday.
Maybe all the DDR is finally paying off?my jaw is more defined today, visibly.
This has been a good start to the day.
67.8
Fucked up
I fucked up today. A bit too much for lunch, but that was was dealable. If I hadn’t had tea.
I made myself some low-cal custard (half milk half water, fake sugar), which again would have been fine on it’s own. But then I had a small bowl of lyss’s plain pasta, with a slice of cheese. That pasta (which is BAD in it’s own right) combined with the low-cal custard and...
DDR
I managed 210 calories, even though I was exhausted. I’m proud of myself. I wish I could have done more, but I’m tired, and want to actually give it a proper go tomorrow.
Net: 514.
Food today
Annoyed at myself… This isn’t ‘fasting’ at all. I’m just eating less. Is this even going to be vaguely effective?
220 cereal
214 soup
40 beans
40 sour cream
160 cheese (One slice with egg, one as a snack)
50 egg.
total
724.
I’m really unimpressed with myself. But I’m tired, and probably not going to DDR. I’ll try a bit later anyway, even...
Breakfasts.
So, seeing as I was so pathetically weak yesterday afternoon, I’ve decided to try (for a couple of days at least) having a solid, ‘rounded’ breakfast, shake for lunch, and maybe soup for tea.
Breakfast is -
210 cereal + milk
81 cal - orange juice (for the iron pill.)
Just a note to the people reading this blog - I know how obsessive the posts have been lately. I’ve just had a few revelations recently which have shown me how far I’ve come from what I want to be, so I’m working very hard to reach something at least close to my ideals. Real life has not been abandoned, I just don’t write about it here. I know my current diet/exercise...
52.7 = underweight for my height by bmi. I really have nothing to worry about, that’s ten k lower than I’ve ever been.
I really hope I lose tomorrow. I ate way too much today.
DDR
408 calories. 28 minutes.
I feel so much better about myself right now.
Plus 80 cals for small slice of banana cake.
Plus another slice of bread, 134 cals.
So, not happy about the bread, but I now have the energy to DDR, which I’m now about to do.
EDIT:
Had a solid tea. A small tin of tuna and a small tin of creamed corn. 320 cals.
I’m incredibly weak at the moment, so i’m supplementing my dinner-soup with a small wedge of bread. 60g. So, total for the day should be
200 shake
20 soup
200 shake
20 soup
134 bread
574
Today...
Managed to lose 200g even after my bread binge yesterday. Fasting the rest of the day seems to have worked.
Today though, I’m extremely lethargic, and have a very strong headache. Possibly a carb hangover combined with the fast? God knows. Either way, I’m sticking with the soup+shakes. The headaches will pass, and by the end of all this, I’ll have a body I’m happy with....
Crap… I should have gone to bed an hour ago. I stayed up reading, and now I have killer hunger pains. A
In two lots (15 plus 22 minutes) I’ve done 540 cals of DDR. Fucking YES! I’m back, bitches~~ xD
Almost didn’t weigh myself today after my dinner last night. Bit I did, and yay, I still lost weight. Another 300 grams down. A kilo in two days lol. Sadly, that rate won’t stay around long, but it’s a good kickstart. 69.1 today.
So I messed up my diet somewhat today. I got sick as hell in the evening, and had pasta (cooked for lyss) in an attempt to make the pain stop. Sadly, it didn’t, so I had the calories for nothing. It wasn’t a binge/urge/craving issue though, so mentally I’m still on track.
Secondly, about an hour after the pasta, the pain was still so bad I took medicine, which got stuck in my...
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Forgot to post yesterday, apologies.
New diet involves shakes, juice and homemade soup. 2 shakes, 2 glasses of juice, and a few small bowls of soup each day. It ends up at around 600-800 calories per day, depending on how many calories are in the soup, which I can’t calculate without knowing how many serves it’ll make. Around 40 at this point is my estimate.
I had a dream that I took another Chinese class at PCE.
But Stephen fry was a student. Weird.